I'm Not Afraid of Failure

I've been away from you for a while, and for that I'm sorry.  I've been trying my hardest to get things going with my art that I haven't left much brain power each day to write you.  I've had something on my mind lately that I'm ready to share, so hopefully this will inspire me to write more often.

I've failed at every aspect of my life but one (being a mother).  I lost my career.  I lost my house.  I lost my credit.  I lost my marriage.  I don't say that to for your pity or concern but to prove a point.  I'm not afraid of failure anymore.  Do you know that I've never been able to say that before?  I'm not afraid of failure!  I've already failed, so I have nothing to lose.

I'm creating art I've always wanted to create because I'm not afraid that I can't.  I'm selling that art on Etsy because I'm not afraid to list it; I may not be making anywhere near a paycheck, but people like my work enough to pay for it.  I'm not afraid to put myself out there because I've already failed and survived.  It wasn't easy and it wasn't fun, but I did it and I can do it again as many times as I need.

In the mean time, I'm showing my son what it's like to work hard for your dreams.  I'm showing myself that I can work hard.  Who knows if I'll fully achieve those dreams, but I'm not letting fear stop me from trying.